My role model Kristine

As we all know yesterday was international women‘s day and in fact of that I want to talk about this beautiful soul: Kristine Ullebø.
Maybe you know her, it’s this pretty human being with a wild and beautiful mind.

It is this young girl from Norway which leads her blog for years and inspired so many girls out there. To read her blog helps me every time when I have a bad day, or even when I can’t get out of bed or simply need inspiration. It’s so nice to read it! You should do it! It is nice to know that there is someone who just thinks and feels the same way like I do. The love to life, the love to a human, the love to music and the simple things in life that gives us so much, which we do not notice in our everyday life. But she does that. Damn I would love to know her personal! I think we would have so much to talk about. Especially about life. There are so many things that we could share with each other. When someone asks me who is my role model, yesss, then it is the 21 year old Kristine from Norway who attempts to make the best of everything. She’s a big reason why I’m on my best way to love myself. So powerful. I could talk about her the whole day but I will end up here..Many thanks Kristine! Hope we get to know each other one day.

in the mood for love

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Today is not one of those bad days, it’s not one of the most amazing days, it took some time to realize this morning that this is just a good day. Waking up next to him is the best feeling ever even the alarm goes on at 7 am. After a while the sun came out and I had to smile. It’s freaking cold outside but the sun … ahh! There is nothing better. Actually I wanted to take some photos for my photography website (it’s online tomorrow, so check out if you want) but my mum and me endet up laying on the couch with the sun in our face talking about love. Ohhh love !! This feeling.! So pure and real when you fall in love the first time, young , fresh, so simple. What a reason to be alive. My favorite thing in this world is love and I’m not getting tired of it!! During my time in the retirement home these two old ladies told me their love story and I could have listened forever! I am not the one telling other people some lovestorys but I’m the one who listen with those cute little hearts in the eyes. Now I am waiting for him to come home after work for some good food and chill conversations and maybe a good movie. Xx

thursday night

So this evening was like one of my favorites. Self made food, red wine (one of the only alcoholic drinks I like) and some news to talk about with dad. So calm!
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Yesterday I cooked dinner with a friend. It was so much fun. Actually, I do not like cooking, and I am not that good at it. But slowly I’m getting warm with it. If you cook with a friend it’s a really nice thing. Friends and delicious food .. hmmm so good! We decided to cook fried wok vegetables with pineapple and curry! Soo delicious! Unfortunately a bit spicy, that explains the milk glass haha! I’m so sensitive about sharpness. Hope you had a nice eve too, sleep well! Xx

turn over

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A few weeks ago I was asked to introduce myself in a showroom as a model. YESS! Always dreamed of! I was there with my boyfriend. Very spontaneously I was called by the agency. Actually, we wanted to eat sushi … we better would have done that. When we arrived, I immediately felt out of place. People looked at me as if something was wrong with me. I explained why I was there and who sent me. I was treated like an object, not as a human. Just passed on but nobody really listened. So I came to the fitting and six people stared at me and another model. Crazy situation, uncomfortable. I was very happy when I was allowed to change clothes again. I had to write down the data of the agency and was allowed to leave. Nobody said goodbye. When we were out we laughed at this weird experience, the people who think they are better and let you feel it. Unfortunately I realized that this world is really based on lies. In the front compliments and behind the eyes went twisting and blaspheming. Terrible! Can you imagine living in such a world? No thanks! Not everyone is like that. I know that, but it’s sad to see a lot of people are and I know, I do not fit in there. Little lost now.
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Also I was scouted by a model agency, I’m still unsure if I should try. It’s a great opportunity and I have nothing to lose. But this glamorous world is not as glamorous as it seems. If you do not have a name, you are virtually nothing. I’m on the best way to love myself, but it’s hard in this industry. If you get a ’no‘ or if you fail, then you have to stand upright and keep going. Easy to say. But let’s try.

friday night fever

Today I recognized that I have to take some time for myself. I think you notice when things get serious, when your body sends you signals, that it just can’t anymore. My body feels limp, except. And so I just had to stay home tonight. And it feels so good! Damn it! I love it. I completely forgot how to be alone without feeling alone. I always have something to do. Lately I have been sad and depressed when I had a break, so I always asked my friends to do something or I was with my boyfriend. And my body has been through it. But today was gameover. I did not have the motivation, the strength, the energy for anything.

So I took my new book and took a bath. aaah so relaxed! It’s so nice to relax with candlelight, close your eyes and just breathe.

Many people read this book, so I could not resist buying it too. So ..today I went to the bookstore and got MILK AND HONEY by rupi kaur. A reaaaaal good one I can say ! I’m not done yet, but it totally seizes me! So honest and real. You should go- buy it!

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After so much relaxation, I lie down on the sofa and relax further and will go straight to bed very soon. Tomorrow is a new day, with no time for myself. But now I can be happy! My body is certainly not quite recovered, but it is already a bit better than before. A friend told me about meditation, maybe I’ll try it next time. We will see.

Well then, goooood night xxx

so many ideas in this head

The caption says it all. At the moment I realize how much I want to do something creative. It’s like I finally got my eyes open. The job I am doing right now is definitely nothing I want to do in the future. I want to create I want to share my work and I want to touch hearts with it. I want the viewers feel something when they look at my photography.
I don’t want to sit a whole day in an office, writing bills and making coffee for others. I just want to get my crazy head out in this big world. It’s amazing what the world has to give to all of us. And I want to get to know so many people, inspiring people with a beautiful mind about life.

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(dress: for love&lemons )

The best way to relax and think about everything is to just open a window in your room, watch the birds flying around the trees and drink some hot chocolate with the fucking sunshine in your face! Love it. Sleep in on Saturday and wake yourself up early on Sunday. It is the best feeling ever.

This is my mood from Sunday night getting ready for the week

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kind words

„You’re a positive human being, with positive energy. You radiate this energy and pass it on to your environment. You can see that. The last year you met a lot of nice and beautiful people. People who became your friends. Friends with the same positive energy, maybe they have received these from you and now transmit it to others. Everyone is full of energy, good energy or bad.
And you can see that… lately you have a lot going on, lots of great possibilities and good ideas.

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It’s normal, that sometimes you don’t feel good (mentally), that may be due to a few people with negative energy who influence a life in addition from the outside, because you’ll always meet people who are against you. But basically you are free. You know that. You left school and your mind has been able to get away from many bad influences. You do your own thing and that’s great. Unfortunately, not everyone has taken that courage and now they’re unhappy because they are doing what the society wants. But I’m sure that some day they will learn it.“

 

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These are my father’s words from last night. I just told him that there was a new opportunity for me to take me further in photography and that I am really happy at the moment. Yes, right now I honestly have no reason to complain, I have to say.

It is nice to hear those words from my dad. I think a lot of people (like me) are not so aware of their impact on others, so it’s great to keep that in mind. You always have to talk to each other. Communication is very important in life.

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People are always happy about positive words.

It does not matter if you know the person or just see them on the street. If I see someone who has a nice charisma or wears beautiful clothes, then I say that out loud. I would not have dared to do that before. But with time I’ve noticed that I get more and more out of myself. Why should you hide nice words?

 

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love this!!

Back at it

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So I had a long break but I am finally back. I definitely missed the time where I felt free to write down what I was thinking of and now I want to do it more often.

I love to read blogs about life and passions and I want to share my thoughts with you. It is so nice to know that you’re not alone with complications and stuff so feel free to join this little diary of thoughts and feelings 🙂

(Yesss I’m in love with those vintage photos. I highly recommend nebi and afterlight for this!)

Today the weather is damn beautiful, a perfect autumn day, I like autumn so much! So I will use this day to make it a good one. Xx

Take a risk take a chance make a change

Sometimes it’s really difficult for me to say what I want to say in english. I first wanted to start this blog in german but I thought it would be better if everyone could understand what I’m saying. So I really try my best to present you my thoughts which would be easier to share in german. As I saw that people from all over the world red my first two posts I was so glad about it that I decided to continue in english but it might be not that good as it should so…sorry about that.

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my workspace today

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I think it’s a good opportiunity for me to get better in the english language -and I really want to get better. You’ll always learn more and more in life when you take little risks and chances to grow. I think with every little step you’ll get closer to your goals so be brave and just do it. Problems are more worse in your head then they really are. When you look back you always see that you’ve learned something.  When it’s happen and it feels bad you should think in the future you have learned something for life.

As well as to take chances I think changes are also very important in life..’cause you can’t run away from them. A level of change in life is pretty good. I need to have a little difference in life. I think you should look at a change not as something ending or something bad…but a door opening to something new or a door open in something you need to remember.

Today was a good day. I went to the city by my own to buy some fairy-lights for my room, it’s so cozy now. Sometimes I love to walk through the town alone, so relaxed and calm. It’s a good feeling to be by your own without feeling alone.

Every 1st of month

A long time ago I red a very good blogpost from Ellie Lemons in which she told us how to start positive in a new month.
10 easy steps you should write down.

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Step 1
5 things to do this month
Just easy things you definitely should do

Step 2
Do these things!

Step 3
Change small things and get over obstacles.
For me it is something like more sports but it could be everything which has to do with motivation

Step 4 
Go out!
Really, go outside. Fresh air – fresh mind. Go for a walk, 15 minutes will do.

Step 5
Take other ways when your outside.

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Step 6 (my favorite one)
Do one thing everyday that you love.
So this is completely up to you, but do it! It’s always good to do something you love and if you have a bad day, don’t miss this step, it could change your bad day in a good one.

Step 7
Concentrate on the main thing
Keep your eyes on which counts the most.

Step 8
Switch off your mobile phone, laptop and TV
We all spend the whole day on our phones or most of the time. And when we finished all the stuff on our phone we turn on the tv or we work with our computers. So switch it off and take a bath in candle light or cook something real good.

Step 9
Only have good thoughts
If your attitude is positive life is more easier.

Step 10
Take new risks
Set yourself some goals you wanted to reach a long time ago. Don’t be shy, be yourself. You will fall many times, but who’s counting?

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I promise, these things will make you really happy, because you take time for yourself.
I do this every month, it is a beautiful reminder!
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